Breakdown

Today I get an email from European Bridal announcing a sample sale. When I first looked at wedding dresses I fell in love with the Modern Trousseau Lauren dress. It was perfect. It was lace with straps, barely a train, light, and elegant. However, there was one small glitch: it was $1,400.

I ended up finding my dress at Bridal and Formal during one of their off the rack sales. I got it for only $94.71 with tax. I was pretty excited about it. We even picked out the bridesmaid's dresses that day. The most amazing part was we did it all before noon. However, I never loved the dress. I saw it as a work in progress. There are so many changes I want to make to it to make it look more like the one above.

I called European Bridal today after work to see if the Lauren dress was included in the sample sale. No dice. It had been sold a week or so ago. My heart was broken. I have been crying off and on all night and can't seem to stop. I look at pictures of me in my dress, and I just don't like it. Its strapless and goes up to far on my chest. The train is too long and there is too much tulle. I just look frumpy. I have realized its not the dress of my dreams. I fear I'm going to look terrible on my wedding day. I could have wonderful hair, nails, make-up, and shoes, but it all comes down to the dress. I bought based on price and not on a gut feeling. I am regretting not just buying the Lauren dress.

My mom and I went to the seamstress a couple of weeks ago to discuss some changes to my dress. It went pretty smoothly. I emailed her last week to see if other changes could be made, but I have yet to hear from her. I just don't know if my dress will ever be what I want it to be.

Tomorrow I am going to call my seamstress. I have to know. I'm also going to be all over the phone trying to possibly locate another Lauren sample dress. My chances are very slim. I may also pop over to the Bridal district and do some browsing. The problem is, I don't know if I would be able to get another dress.

People say its just one day, but its a day I'll remember for all my life. I want to remember looking and feeling like the best damn bride ever.